ON my Mind 3-25-09

Today is an okay day. Just a lot on my mind that i am trying not to stress out about. School is okay, but it's pretty tough when you have to leave at 7:40a.m just to be sure you make it to a 10am class. Going all the way out to Dearborn from highland park WITHOUT proper transportation to go to school was one of the decisions i didn't think through i must admit. I'm not really said, I've actually been in a pretty good mood these past few weeks. I'm just stressing out a little because it's so difficult for me to find work. Times are getting tough, and i need the money to provide for my own self. I never ask anyone for anything, even if i know i really need it. I just have to much pride to ask sometimes and its not always a good thing. I've always been the type of person who wants to give and not wait for others to give to me. To help others, and be able to help myself. But even with the little cash i have and the many efforts i put forward to better myself and try to help others along the way, at the end of the day i feel like I'm stuck in neutral when it comes to life. I'm not really going backwards, but i'm also not moving forward wither. I just pray every single moment of the day that things will get better. That's why i'm not sad and I haven't given up on faith because i know that God has something in store for me. I know that's how a lot of people lose in life because they give up early on in the struggle, but not me. I'm not gonna stop working for a better future until God calls me home. Well i'm about to finish filling out this application that i started for "the mexican grill". {lol} i told you i DON'T STOP! {LOL}