The Struggle

Well where do I began......Well lets get too it.

I've been struggling emotionally this past week. I just found out two weeks ago that my aunt has lung cancer. I go and visit her in the hospital every other day. Either Before/After class or Before/After I get off work. I'm physically and mentally tired but God continues to give me strength to push on. I need to be strong for my family. I hear my up at three o'clock every morning crying herself to sleep. I stayed on the phone with my cousin from 7pm-1am because she is afraid of being in the house alone while my aunts away at the hospital. She broke down and cried and I cried along with her. I guess know one ever thought to think that someone in our family would ever be diagnosed with Cancer.

I over heard my mother and other aunt talking about the situation. They haven't told me, my aunts children and other cousins that the Dooctor has given her a year to live. When I heard that, it broke my heart. I'm just still in shock from the entire situation. I know they don't want to tell the rest of the family because they know it will upset us. But I know now.

I've just been praying that God gets her through this. I don't believe that my aunt will be leave this earth by the doctors decision, but when God is ready for her to come home.


Just pray for my Family my blog friends.

I'LL PRAY FOR U AS WELL!

A little Bit

It's been a minute since I posted a blog so I'll just go through this week quickly. In school I had excellent grades. My over all is a 92% yep, your girl made the Deans list, get motivated like me...lol. I'm so mad I missed the black Friday sales, could have made them but I was way to lazy after I stuffed myself with all that delicious food the day before on Thanksgiving. I had to work on Black Friday anyway. I worked from 5:30pm-midnight. I was so tired when I got home this morning, but I stayed up and watched the movie "step-brothers" with my sister, that movie is freaking hilarious!

I don't have any plans today...don't have to work for the next couple of days, so i guess i'll go do a little christmas shopping.

that's all for now bloggers! see ya!

Hey bloggers! I'm back again. Half sleep and half way awake. I'm doing homework that isn't do for two weeks. You hear me, TWO WEEKS! I am two weeks ahead of my class. I tend to over work myself sometimes I think. I had a good day though. I pulled a 85% for my clinical/laboratory grade. I think I'm somewhere in between a 90-94% as far as lecture, and I better have atleast a 98%. I guess I'll finish studying after this quick homework, and finish texting my highschool body tyrone.

later bloggers

freakin love this song {CRAWL} by Chris Brown

hey hey hey

(THIS IS THE LIFE OF A MEDICAL STUDENT...BOOKS...BOOKS....AND MORE BOOKS)

I'm tired as heck...worked 9 hrs today. Got up at 7a.m. when i didn't go to sleep until 4a.m. I need to work on some new sleep habits. I feel like i haven't been to sleep in the past 2 weeks (SO SERIOUS THOUGH!) I was planning on sleeping tomorrow...but I don't think I will get the chance. I might go clean up my aunts house and cook dinner for her she has scoliosis and is unable to do some of the necessary things and her husband (my uncle) is out of town. And nobody else besides my mom will help her smh. I don't know what some of my family is for sometimes.

Between school and work, I don't even know what a social life is. But it will pay off in the end.

work and school is all i do....five days a week...graduation coming soon though....IN MAY 2010.

On another note....i'm kind of happy I get to see one of my best friends from high school this thanks giving. We were best friends for 5yrs (8th grade to 12th) And I'm not talking about the type of friendship where girls be lying saying "o yea thats just my friend" knowing she has feelings for him....he is genuinely my friend....he was like my body guard in high school and when ever I needed him, he always had my back. I haven't seen him in like 2yrs. He got in contact with me through facebook, saying he was gonna stop by for the holiday.


(WORK....WORK...AND MORE WORK)

NOVEMBER 10TH BLAH BLAH BLAH LOL

School: Let's see....today was a very irritating day. My instructor worked my nerves. She gave me a dang 78 on my test when I know dang well i should have gotten a 90 something...she marked me down for the smallest things. A 78 is still passing but to me it isn't since all of my other test have been 100 or 96%. BIG DROP RIGHT? I said the same thing. I think she did it on purpose.

"THAT GUY": It's so funny that the guy decided to email me, he hasn't called because he can't face me. This is what the email said read:

im sooo sorry, what i did was wrong, n i cant take that back. but i did not tell you bcuz i didnt like the situation that i was in, n i felt that we could start something... i really did like the time that we shared together, n will always cherish it. i dont kno if could ever regain your trust, n i really dnt like to hurt ppl. those convos that we had was truely me.... but at the end of the day i did lie n i APOLOGIZE

Maybe I'm wrong for being very emotionless after reading this but I was. It just went in one ear and out the other. Guess I'll reply when I feel like it.

Work: Soooo happy about work. My job called me earlier at school. I did so good at my interview that they asked me to begin work early. I was originally suppose to begin on the 22nd. Now I start working Saturday working 25 hours a week. Giving thanks to God for he always blesses me!

Til next time bloggers...........

So let me update you....hummm....where to start?

okay lets start with the last post i made. Totally a mistake. That guy was a definite a** hole. Come to find out that my prince Charmin had a girlfriend that he failed to mention to me. I found out on my own....gave him one good shot at telling me the truth and he still lied saying: "why'd you ask that? Naw i don't have a girlfriend on the side baby, I'm not that kind of guy" That was until I gave him his girlfriends first and last name. Lesson one....if you are a "player" always put your facebook page on lock. That's how I got your girlfriend name idiot. I'm glad we weren't dating or in an actual relationship because i would have been more upset then what i was. I have like the worst luck with men...but i haven't join the fan club N.A.S. I don't feel that its true. There are good guys out there, I'm just looking in the wrong places I guess. But I'm not pressed for a relationship, just thought it was a good start on dating again....guess it wasn't but hey. NEEEEXXXXTTT! LOL J/K

I had a job interview today! I got the job! yay me. I start work at Macy's on the 22nd. Hopefully I can balance work and school out evenly. I've been doing well in school...i think this is my best year since I've been in college. My overall grade averages A-. It'll be A+ when I graduate in April. I'll also be getting my car this week HOPEFULLY! Can't wait. God has always blessed me, and he continues to daily. He brings me through all my dark times. I'm forever grateful to know a man such as him with such a open heart.

well i'm off to study for my medical terminology exam for tomorrow. BYE

something new

Hey bloggers! how has everyone been? great i hope lol. Well any who....guess what? I've began dating again. Its been a while.. I just haven't had the time or patients in developing new friendships with the opposite sex. But I finally decided to live a little and let my hair down. I've been dating a great guy for about a month now. we aren't "together" per say, but we've been hanging out and getting to know one anoher. We met at school about 3 months ago. I think that he is a very intelligent, fun, caring, and outgoing person. He makes me smile and laugh every time I'm around him. Not to mention that he is very attractive. He is goal oriented, he graduates from school in may (we'll be graduating together), he is a certified MA (Medical Assistant), and very family oriented.

So far so good between us.....lets see where this goes.

O, lord my head is hurting so bad. It's all stuffed up. I haven't been sick in a while. Thanks to my little sister miriam. She has sneezed all in my face, and now that I'm sick, with an headache she is out and about smiling, jumping, and laughing. Isnt that something lol. This headache is kicking my butt though, I'm off to lay down.

see ya :(

well well well

I had a blast last night with the family. We went bowling. I can't bowl worth anything lol. I didnt get not one strike. Come on now, even my little sister got a strike lol. But i guess losing can be fun too. I went to work this morning and then to Chandler parks "aquatic family center" it was really nice. We're suppose to be going to the movies tomorrow night to see the new harry potter movie and then out to eat. Saturday I'm gonna go get my first Tattoo! FINALLY! YAY! I'm like two years late from when I was originally suppose to get it but soooo what lol.

well I'm off to find something to do! see ya!

Irritated!!!!!!

Work was horrible. Those kids were too wild for my liking! the employer and the employee's excluding me and one other person out of 10 staff members SUCK! ugh. They act like children, now wonder the children act the way they do. I worked from 7am-2pm, I went to the secretary of state at 2:30 p.m. so that they can issue me a new license, and I didn't leave there until 5pm. So if your wondering why I'm a tad bit irritated review what I read and you would be irritated too!

Gosh! I'm about to go take a nap. Later!

what I've been up to?

I know I haven't been keeping my readers updated so let me go through this really quick....ready...set....gooooo....lol....I spent the holiday with my aunt and cousins at metro beach. I had a blast. I can't tell you the last time I put on a swim suit. I've been working my but off daily, I am so tired. About time that I get off, all that I can do is fall asleep. But I'm not complaining, I'm glad to be working. Yesterday I had "treat day" with my little cousins and little sister. We baked up anything that you can come up with. We made a chocolate cake, a vanilla cake, cup cakes, cheese cake (an oreo one and a plain one), chocolate chip cookies, and a lot of other stuff. That's alot of junk food right? lol. We did eat good yesterday too though because I barbecued also.

In family news--------> it's been a hot mess. I helped one of my cousins go get his stuff that was thrown out on the middle of the side walk by his ex girlfriend, lord it was too much going on that day but I got threw it. This same cousin keeps telling me I should get in contact with my brother because he isnt doing to well. I told him the same thing I tell everyone else, if he needs me, he's gonna have to come to me first because I'm tired of reaching out to this grown man who acts like a child....so "what ever is my response" no, I'm not being mean but I closed that chapter in my book and lit the pages on fire. and as God as my witness I refuse to take that path again....next subject.....lol

In Love news---------> still single and enjoying it. I don't really feel like being attached to a guy right now. And I don't get lonely. The only people that are miserable alone are those who feel they aren't strong enough to be alone. You have to stand in your own corner sometimes and have your own back. Can't learn to love anybody else if you aren't willing to take the time out to love yourself. Easily said than done, only the strong shall survive! I'm too focus on other aspects of my life to take time out for the headaches, petty arguments, tears, and worries that come along with relationships. I don't have the patients. But I pray that some day God gives me the serenity to conquer the beauty and uniqueness of such a strong bond with a special guy someday.

UNTIL THEN i'm about to wash and get ready for work in the a.m

Today

I had a good day. I didnt have to work to hard at work. I spent the day at belle isle with the kids from my job. We had a blast. Well i know i did lol. Ugh I hate that my phone is off though. I didnt pay because I was too busy, I can't go pay it until tomorrow. So i'll be back in service people. I did go try to pay it today but the store was closed when I found time, SUCKS! so I spent the late hours at all swim suit stores so that I could find a nice swim suit for Saturday. I think I'm gonna go by me some shoes tomorrow. It's been a minute since I've brought some new kicks! I've been checking out some nice used cars also. I found a couple of good ones. I'm gonna try to have my own transportation by fall (I know I say that every fall LOL) I always try though and then I'm always left paying someone else's unexpected bill...it never fails but that's life.

Well that's all for now...bloggers!

1st day of Work

Man this first day was crazy. I don't mind it though. I love little kids. They always remind me of how much fun it was to be a child. Kids are the future, just like we once were or as we are right now. They tell the corniest jokes but it's so hilarious in my perspective. They tell the longest stories that take forever to get to the ending but even their stories teach you something new. I enjoy their laughter and those innocent smiles. My child hood was bitter sweet, 50 50, a sunny and darkened sky. I have some of the most wonderful memories and a few bad but its a part of life. All my coworkers kept asking "how are you so good with kids". My reply: "because I'm such a big kid at heart" I really am. I've been working with kids for a very long time. I've seen them all. Those who are over active, those with emotional issues (low self-esteem), sickly(sickle cell, bipolar, depressed, cancer ect), those in poverty (like literally had nothing).

I just become that person that they feel they are missing in life like an (older sister, cousin, mentor, teacher, best friend) For example I met this little girl about 3yrs ago, she's 12 now and she still refers to me as her best friend and she hugs me so tight and greets me with a smile and runs up to me every time she sees me. I love kids, I think some just want a little attention and just to know that someone in this world cares. If I can help out that way, I am willing.

well thats all for now.

Micheal Jackson and my thoughts on his death

Hey bloggers. I know everyone is tired of hearing about the death of Micheal Jackson but I'm gonna put my input in anyway lol. When I was a child I only knew a handful of artist (seriously) and one of them happened to be Micheal Jackson. My father was a big fan, therefore I was a big fan. I can only remember my dad listening to Jackson 5, Micheal Jackson and the temptations when I was probably 3-9. Then I grew up in the hip hop genre listening to pac, and all the other artist that were coming on the scene and kinda left micheal in the past with the "old folks". I guest I just kinda lost interest in him as I explored new face and sounds in music.

I had Micheal Jacksons poster on my bed room door from the cd "Bad" (I swear lol) He was hot too, I don't care what any of you say lol. My dad gave it to me. I remember me and my sister Walli would watch his concert that my dad taped almost every weekend. It was an HBO special that only aired once on national television and my dad just so happened to tape it. I think that was in like "92".

My favorite songs were "man in the mirror" "heal the world" "remember the times" "bad" "dirty dianna" "you are not alone" and (more recent song) "butterflies"

I hear alot of people saying "know body likes an artist util they die" well forget what they are saying I know I liked Micheal. And yes I made fun of him and joked about him just like everyone else but that doesnt mean I didn't respect him as an artist. He is legendary, and he will forever be remember. I think he was inspiration to both the older and younger generation. His music was so positive and made you feel that you could change this world if you really wanted to. His appearance changed so much over the years, and I know it was hard to recognize the once young Micheal that was once part of the Jackson 5 but I know his heart still remained the same.

R.I.P

MICHEAL JACKSON

NEW MOVIES

There are so many good movies coming out that I can't wait to see this year, and next year. They all look so good check out the trailers!

"2012"



"G.I JOE, THE RISE OF THE COBRA"


"Halloween 2 (remake 2009)"


"THE FINAL DESTINATION"

Friday NIght

(this is only one plate out of like 7 that we were eating lol)

Transformers 2 was so good! I loved it. I had a blast at the movies last night with my sister and cousin asisha. I didnt think it would be better than the first one but it was. We went out to Chilli's to eat before hand. I never ate there before but the food was absolutely delicious lol. I couldn't finish it all there so I sure brought me home a doggie bag (I never understood why they called it that but okay, lol)

We played a bunch of games trying to win prizes trying to win thes little rubber toys out of the machine (below picture) They were so cute. I named my little monster/toy/ball lucky because it almost didnt make it out of the machine lol. It fell out of the mechanical hands about 7 time. I used alot of Quarters.

Too bad Domo didnt come with us. She's been acting really distance for the last 2 months but i'll save that for another blog.

ANYWHO I had a ball!

I can't seem to find any trucks for my friend Chris (that's him in the above picture) and his sons mother (jenniva). I'm looking up different used trucks but I can't seem to find any in the price range of $1000-1050. Does anyone know any sites or sources I can try? I've found some nice cars for a decent price but no trucks. I guess I'll call him with the heartbreaking new of "no trucks available" later lol.

well other than that I'll be going to the movies later on to see "tranformers 2"

See ya bloggers!

2009 Fireworks--->Hart Plaza view!

It is now 5:25am. I havent been to sleep yet. I had so much at the fireworks though. I have live footage that I took with my camera, check it out. It was so crowded. We didnt make it in until 1am because we were stuck in traffic for 2hrs. But I had a blast though....I didnt even get bitten by any mosquito's lol

(WARNING: YOU MAY WANT TO TURN DOWN YOUR SPEAKERS TO WATCH, IT'S EXTREMELY LOUD!!!!!)

The past 3 days

(that's just one pic I took at my moms birthday party)

Hi bloggers. I know it has been a couple of days since I've blogged. I've been having so much fun, and I really needed that "lift me up". Sunday went great. We threw my mom a party which ended maybe at midnight, and then my cousin threw her an after party at his house and we partied til about 5 in the morning. Man i was so freaking tired but I got up monday morning, probably about 10 to clean up the mess from the party and about 6:00pm everybody was right back at our house again. It was myself, my two sisters, my cousins asisha, xavier, isiah, domonique and her boyfriend bryson.

They taught me how to do the turbo hustle because at my moms birthday party i couldnt do it to save my life lol. Then they taught me some more hustles, both old and new. Man I haven't even attempted to hustle since I was younger. I wasnt as interested in it after my aunt sandra died since she was the one who taught me and would always do it with me. Then we played the alphabet game. Have you guys every played that? It was hilarious to hear the names we were coming up with for each letter. I haven't laughed that hard in a long time lol. We also played alot of other games and just chilled out. Everybody probably left about 2 that morning.

Where are we.....TUESDAY? LOL. Okay Tuesday was another fun day. My cousin asisha called me, wanted to come chill out. Then domo called and said she was coming too. Then my aunt called telling me she was stopping by to bring my cousins linda and Aj over to hang for a little while. SIDEBAR: Linda stays in California. We've only met her once, when she was 7, now she is 18. So it has been a course of 13yrs since we've seen each other. BUT BACK TO THE STORY. Everyone came to hang out again, we watched a ton of movies for the first half of the day (haunting in Connecticut, crank 2, dance flick and drag me to hell). All on bootleg of course. lol

Then we spent the rest of the night, playing my games. We played tunk for shots. We didnt use shots of liquor though. We used shots of water lmbo. I know it sounds extremely easy to lose and drink cups of water following a lost, BUT trust me when I tell you, IT'S NOT! Man I kept losing, that water was making me so sick ugh lol. We had a plast though. Domo left early so she didnt get to play, but everyone left at like 3 that morning. Our house has been the party house for the past 3 days!

But today I have a meeting at 2 for my job, I start Monday FINALLY! and then a group of us are going down to the fireworks tonight.


So that's all for now! talk to you later bloggers!

scam

that job was such a scam. They want you to pay 100 to start working. You don't get paid until you take a placement test, and during the course of practicing to be in a customer service position you have to pay $25 a month! WHAT! ARE YOU SERIOUS? LOL. That's some crap! but it's okay, I have one job so I'll work with what I was given. In the mean time, I back in front of the t.v. lol.

HUmmm

I am bored (nothing new, right? lol). Not to mentiton that I have a slight headache. I have a interview at 7pm so hopefully it goes well (wish me luck). I'm really looking forward to starting work already. Besides that I've been planning some event's. My mom's birthday and father's day are both on the same day (June 21st). So I need to go do some shopping tomorrow. I think me and my sister are just gonna give them both a barbecue and invite all of our family over. The both of them stated that they didnt want anything so I guess cooking for the day and a little something on the side will be nice. I have also been looking up water parks so that I can begin planning my little sister birthday party (July 30th). I Know my pockets are gonna be so empty when I finish with her, but she's a good kid and she deserves. I've found a few that appeared to be fun, If anyone else know's of any fun water parks, let me know please! Thanks.

Well I'm off again...SEE YA!

Job fair

I just got back in from the job fair....lord!!! there were so many people there. I am definately glad I went though. I landed two interview today though. I have one saturday and the other one is when ever the hiring manager calls and tells me, which will probably be later on today. My feet are killing me even though i wore flats...guess that didnt really help any. I thought it was really funny that some of the employers kept asking if I was old enough to work. Come on now, do i really look that young? lol. I don't think that I do. But I guess everyone has different perspectives of what others look like.


well that's all for now bloggers!

UP LATE

Well I'm up late updating my resume so I can get up early and attend this job fair tomorrow. (yep, i have two jobs lined up and still searching) you can never be TOO determined. I'm downloading some music and playing mafia wars too. I'm sleepy as heck though...so I'm about to call it a night in a few minutes.



GOODNIGHT

"Martin" I wish I had the season's on dvd

Don't you guys just love Martin, this show is old and still cracks me up. Especially when he plays sheneneh! If you never watched the show you don't know what you are missing! lol

Kelly

Today my sister Walli is suppose to be going to pay for the new puppy (kelly is her name) that we are trying to get my mom for her 51st birthday (shhhhh...don't tell her that I told her age, she'll kill me lol. but she doesn't look it, check out her pic on the "mother's day" post) ANYWHO BACK TO WHAT I WAS SAYING....my mothers biggest wish is to have a puppy, she has always wanted one as a child. She had a family dog when she was younger but never a puppy to call her own, so hopefully me and my sister can grant her wish. If everything works out, the puppy should be delivered late saturday or early sunday.......wish us luck

Norris Hull- The Voice of Walmart

This is a video clip of my cousin Norris "dre" Hull. He is legally blind, but has accomplished alot. He never uses his disability as an excuse not to do anything in life. And doesn't like anyone to feel sorry for him. He dislikes pity parties, he is just as normal as the next person He is loving, and a big inspirations to every one around him. I love him dearly.
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(THIS IS THE ARTICLE THEY DID ON HIM FROM THE DETROIT NEWS)

It's a big store and Norris Hull is pretty much in the center of it, so it's only natural for his assistant manager to ask: "Norris, have you seen so-and-so?"

Then DeEtta Whigham-Johnson will cringe, because Norris Hull has never really seen anything.

Of course, that also means he can't see her smack herself in the forehead, which is good. Besides, as Hull points out, "it's just a figure of speech."

"No," he'll tell her, "but I'll let you know." And chances are that before long, he'll have an answer.

Every weekday from 7 a.m. to 4 p.m. at the Wal-Mart in Livonia, you can see Hull handle the switchboard, ride herd on managers, make announcements and show customers to the dressing rooms, counting by touch to make sure how many items they're taking in.

As we've already established, he will not see you. Between chronic cataracts and glaucoma, he's been sightless since birth. But this is not a hey-look-what-the-blind-guy-can-do story.

We're past that. When the governor of New York is legally blind, it's hardly surprising that a 39-year-old junior college graduate can excel in retail.

What raises eyebrows is how he affects the people around him -- the co-workers who watch out for him when he's walking the aisles, the customers who call him by name, the managers such as Whigham-Johnson, who tells him, "I don't know what I'd do without you."

The day he started work -- it was March 28, 2001, and he remembers the date the way he remembers most everything else -- he promised his new employer that "I will try to be the best phone operator possible."

From the look of it, he is.

He's got the touch

The nerve center of the mammoth store is a surprisingly tiny phone console, the same one you'd expect to find at your dentist's office. One handset, a few lines, some blinking green lights, separate buttons for holds and transfers.

Hull can tell by touch which function is which and by memory which lines want attention. Useful phone numbers are typed in Braille on some sheets of white paper he hasn't needed for years.

"Good morning," he says, "and thank you for choosing your Livonia Wal-Mart Supercenter. How may I best direct your call?"

He inserted that "best" himself, just to reinforce the idea that someone is going the extra mile. When people call for the pharmacy, he'll ask whether they need a prescription or something on a shelf, and then he'll give tips on how to accelerate the process.

The manager who hired him, back at the old store a few blocks north on Middle Belt Road, told him he had a great voice. "We'll put you on the phones," he said.

Now when Hull takes a vacation, the other employees threaten to transfer all the calls to his house.
God-given baritone

He does, in fact, have a great voice, a smooth baritone he slips into when he's sending an associate to the bicycle department or chasing down a manager. Customers will hear it and look up at the ceiling, maybe wondering if an out-of-work radio host hijacked the P.A. system.

"It's just a God-given talent," Hull says. The Lord giveth, and then sometimes you're born with only the faintest ability to make out colors. Before long even that goes away, but you look on the bright side: You can still remember most of them.

Hull grew up in Detroit and lives on the west side with his mom and a niece, close to the store. A subsidized ride service gets him to work and back for $5.

Off duty, he likes to play video games; he can tell from the voices who has the ball in NBA Live. He'll go out to eat, ideally at chains that have Braille menus so he can choose his own meal.

"I like to laugh. I like living," he says. Sometimes he'll dream that he can drive a car, but when he wakes up he hops back on the MetroLift bus, and that's fine.

"I'm not injury-prone," he says, running down his list of blessings. He's a good hand with a white cane. He has friends at work who will push shopping carts out of his way or guide him to where he's headed.

He's not out to be anybody's inspiration, he says; he's simply carrying on the best way he can. When duty calls, you answer.

He excuses himself to pick up the receiver. "Fantastic," he says. "How are you?"

cracking up lol

I'm sitting here watching "it's pimpin pimpin" (katt williams) this stand up always has me dieing laughing. "he not only decided he was gonna walk again BUT he was gonna race again" "he took off....TINK TINK TINK TINK....paper clips sparks flying" lol

He is sooo silly

I think I'm gonna watch "friday" after this.

I know--------->>>>>>> I'M A MOVIE HEAD LOL :)


Good night!!! Be safe and keep me in your prayers, because you are in mines.

Random Things about me!

1. My nick name is mimi (just about everyone calls me this)

2. I don't eat fried chicken, ribs, steak or any of that (no I'm not a vegetarian) I just never ate it a lot as a child because I didnt like it, I grew into an adult and still don't like it. and yes I'm black! lmbo

3. My favorite color is blue, my least favorite color is pink

4. I want to become a nurse, and also go to both photography and cosmetology school.

5. I love fruit, I can eat it all day. (minus banana's ugh)

6. I write poetry, I have over 200 poems, I just don't share alot of them

7. I never got to know any of my grandparents :(

8. Everyone tells me that I'm a daddy's girl because we look and act alike.

9. My favorite sitcoms are: martin, fresh prince of bellaire, one on one, house of pain, and my wife and kids

10. My favorite Rappers are: Tupac and Eminem

12. My favorite Movies are: Friday, Juice,poetic justice, scarface, Boyz in the hood, the color purple, the other sister (JUST ABOUT ALL DENZEL WASHINGTON AND MORGAN FREEMAN MOVIES), the "Harry Potter films" and set it off

13. I have two sisters and unfortunately a brother that I don't get along with

14. I really hate when females use alot of profanity, it's okay when appropriate but sometimes it can be so unlady like

15. I have a gym shoe fetish...I love gym shoes...I don't really wear heels and sandals and all of that, nope I'm not your girly girl, but I'll put a pair on when the occasion calls for it

16. I have no tattoos but plan on getting atleast 4 before 2009 is over with

17. I've never broken any bones

18. I don't smoke or drink

19. I have the sickle cell trait which causes my blood level to be low

20. I have horrible nose bleeds when it gets hot

21. I enjoy laughing and making people laugh (most see me as quite but I'm a really silly person when you get to know me)

22. I have one nephew

23. My best friends are my sister (walli) and cousin (domonique)

24. I cry when I see other people hurting (I'm so sensitive right)

25. I have more male friends than female friends (I just seem to get along with guys better and I NEVER have a secret agenda like some females, "they say he's just a friend" but want more. I just really enjoy having guy friends, they're cool :)

26. I hate when people do things for me than talk about. I'd rather for you not to do it if you feel you have to tell the world.

27. I don't like my middle name (nebula) but I guess I'm stuck with it lol

28. I'm 4'11 in height (yep you guessed it, I'm short)

29. I wear a size 4 in shoes

30. One of my most embarrassing moments was when I was rocking in my little sisters rocking chair and slid down the porch steps lol (I can laugh now but omg was that embarrassing)

31. I'm shy around people I don't know

32. I graduated in the top 10% of my class (2006) with a 3.6 gpa

33. I wish I had stability in life so that I could try and adopt my little cousin Mariah

34. All little kids seem to love me. I'm around kids most of the time

35. I love texting....I rather text than talk on the phone

37.I can't swim

38. I've only been in a fight once in life (I probably was like 11, I beat the girl up with a skate) lol...that's sad

37. I love comedy

38. The scary moment in my life is when someone started shooting in my direction on my way home from school in 9th grade

39. I just learned how to braid at 21 (seriously) lol...but any other type of hair style I can do really good.

40. Last BUT NOT LEAST I love Jesus Christ with all my soul, he's the best man I've ever known

I LOVE THIS MOVIE "JUICE"

This is one of my favorite movies and favorite scenes for a movie ever!

Another day

I'm bored at the moment. I wish these 2 weeks will fly by so that I can start my new job. I'm hanging out with my little sister today....I guess we are gonna kick back and enjoy the day, watch some movies, make some popcorn and all that good stuff lol....i know i know I'm a good sister right? lol. I'm a little disappointed because I wanted to go to battle creek the weekend to hang with my dad's side of the family for my lil cousin bay bay's graduation and open house. I barely ever get to see them. I see them maybe twice a year. I had intentions on going until my new boss called a meeting for today saying she was gonna call everyone and tell us what time to come. Then she never called, so that kinda made me mad because I could have left last night and enjoyed a good time with my family. But they'll be other times.



Well, I'm off to enjoy the rest of day!

Have a blessed day and be safe.

I cry by Tupac Shakur

(My favorite Poem)

Sometimes when I'm alone
I Cry,
Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I Cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confiding,
I would cry among my treasured friend,
but who do you know that stops that long,
to help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry,
so painful and sad.
And sometimes...
I Cry
and no one cares about why.

WORKING FOR THE BEST

Today was a good day. I had a meeting for a Job that I wont be starting until a few weeks....thank the lord. He know's I need the money. Then I'm gonna be up early in the morning to fill out an application and more paper work at Target...a friend of my family is trying to get me hired in there. Two jobs would be a great blessing. Even If it doesnt work out I actually have another Job lined up for save-a-lot market....the manager told me to come see her on the 15th. If I could work all 3 jobs I WOULD! I also got the scoop on some great information for small claims court....YEP, I'M TAKING MY MOTHER'S SON TO COURT! so that's next on a list of things for me to do. God has truly blessed me. Even in the worst times he makes me realize that days will be brighter for me. THANK YOU JESUS AND MY HEAVENLY FATHER FOR ALL THAT YOU DO FOR ME!! GOOD AND BAD...I always learn something out of these many situations that I'm put in.

IN other new-------> Did you just see that little stunt they just pulled on Eminem on the awards. He was to upset wasnt he. Can't wait for the dis song for this event to drop {lol}

I'm tired now though, I'm about to play Mafia wars for a minute and then I'm off to bed.



GOODNIGHT!

Mailing List

I finally took the time to write a couple of people and send out all the letter and cards I've been meaning to send for the longest yesterday. I hope all my cousins receive their congrats on graduating cards in the mail. I also took time out of my schedule to write two off my cousins who are on lock down. My cousin (Darrell Green) has 8yrs for robbery and unlawful imprisonment he just turned 18 on the 6th of this month. I also took time to write my cousin (Arenza Hubbard Sr.) who has 50+ YEARS. I never really got to know my cousin Arenza on a personal level because he spent most of his time in Battle Creek. But he is still my family, and not even for a second could I imagine being in his shoes. What could you possibly do in prison for life? I decided that I would write him until the day he leaves this earth, because even behind bars that's still my blood and I love him just the same.

Now my cousin Darrell on the other hand, I had a very close relationship with. He always tagged behind me and my other cousin Domonique. For the longest he was the only child until his mom decided she wanted to have another child when he was 14. He had the best sense of humor ever. He would spend the night or come over and we would stay up until like 3a.m. cracking up at the dumbest things. I miss that about my little cousin. I hope within these next 8yrs he doesnt lose that sense of humor.....

Well that's enough about my family business FOR TONIGHT

BLACK HAIR?????

I dyed my hair black, What do you think? I really like it. I finally kinda look my age...a little bit, I think...??..??? lol. My hair color decision was totally random. Walked in to the beauty supply and said "humm i wonder what i would look like with black hair" and decided to see. I guess I'm really bored with life lol.

Mothers Day

Well I hope all the wonderful Mothers had a beautiful day. My mother sure did. I took a trip in the pouring rain yesterday to get her gift, woke up at 7am this morning and made her breakfast in bed, than begin to cook dinner. I made shrimp pasta, fried chicken, a tray full of good stuff (cheese, pickles, olives, cucumbers, tomatoes and celery), made macaroni, and a red velvet cake. If that's not love I don't know what is because I'm beat.

She got the two gifts she so desperately wanted (J Lo "live" perfume) and (Warm sugar Vinilla body spray, body wash, and lotion from bath and body works)....none of those items are cheap by the way! My pockets are looking kinda low lol. I'll survive though.

Well that's all for now....GOOD NIGHT!

this morning

I'm up early about to get dressed in a few so I can head to the mall to get my mom a gift. I woke up feeling great....but mad that my phone charger broke again. Guess I'll be buying that at the mall as well....this is the 5th one since October...I don't know what's wrong with these dang chargers. Makes me wanna throw my phone out the window! lol (anger issues right? lmbo)

Today has been another good day for me. I stayed on the phone with my cousin Domonique for close to four hours. I haven't talked to anyone on the phone for that long in so long...wow..lol. I guess because we have so much to talk about. That's like my little sister. I don't know where I would be in life with out my big sis Walli and lil cousin Domo. Everytime I'd every wanted to just give up they were there to push me along the way. I have so much love for them.

If they fight, I fight. If they cry I cry. If they fall I'm gonna always be there to pull them back up, even if I have to fall right along with them. We're just gonna have to rebuild our strengths together. We've been through anything you can name together. I laugh so hard until it feels like I'm gonna pass out when I'm with them. I've been labeled the "goofy" one out of the group. I'll admit that I am. I crack jokes for days and laugh at anything. I remember when I was younger my mom told me I was never gonna be serious in life because I thought everything was funny. Boy didn't we both get a reality check lol

I wonder (an old poem I wrote years ago)

Sometimes I wonder why I shed tears on you when I doubt you'd the same for me.
You had true love right in your face but you refused to see.

I never would have hurt you, even when angered I wouldn't try.
But a long the way the truth uncovered showed me that you lie.

It stumps me because your words are so full of charm, I wouldn't have
guessed that you would bring me any harm.

How could you say that you love me and tell the next girl the exact same thing.
Seeing me hurting, what kind of pleasure to you does that bring?

Do you know that I loved you? and that was to no extent!
I'll always cherish the times that we spent.

But I have to let you go now and refocus all my thoughts
I just wanted you to be clear on the pain that you had brought

Good Day

Well today is a good day people. I finally got the chance to relax for the past two days. I haven't really talked to anybody....just keeping to myself. Not that I'm mad at anybody or anything, I'm just enjoying the peacefulness while I have the chance. Allowing myself to refocus and clear my mind.

I can't wait to get out of school next week. I'm looking forward to summer break. I'm thinking about taking a trip to Texas to visit my uncle Charles. He has only taken a trip to Michigan 3 times since I've been born. But for the last 5 months we've been holding phone conversations on the phone now and then, getting to know each other better.

He recently had surgery for cancer. Thank God all the cancer in his lungs was found and removed successfully!!!

Well on the other hand I just finished eating good and sitting here watching t.v. until I find something to do later on.

HOPE ALL YOU GUYS ARE ENJOYING THE WEEKEND! I AM!

I have a bill.......... NO BROTHER

This has been a rough week for me so allow me to blog it out...

As of Monday I've chosen to no longer continue having a sibling relationship with me brother. He is and will always be one of the bigger a-holes that I've ever known. Have you ever tried to help a family member out and they completely you over? Well that's what happened to me.

About a year ago allowed my brother to use my name to get his lights and electricity for his new home since i didnt have my own place at the time. Summer of last year DTE calls saying the bill is $2000. I call and question him about it and was too upset about the bill even getting to that amount.

By the end of summer maybe the first week of August he tells me that the Bill was completely paid off because the Government helped and I had nothing else to worry about. I took his word for it and forgave him for his mistake and moved on.

Recently maybe just two weeks ago I received another phone call from the company saying t that the bill is $4000 YES $4000. Come to find out he has only made one payment on the bill since August 2008 in the amount of $200. Which means he had been lying to me the entire time. He went almost an entire year with out paying the bill. I really can't believe he did that too me.

Then he had the nerves to tell me that He told me "don't worry about it, and don't call his house questioning about it". I couldn't even believe him. So do you know what I did.........

I called DTE the next morning (April 21, 2009) and requested for the lights to be turned off. They were officially turned off as of Thursday (April 23, 2009). I called and told my brother that I had nothing more to say to him and I would be calling every week expecting payment on that bill the day he gets his check.

Friday rolls around (payday) and CAN YOU BELIEVE HE GOT HIS NUMBER CHANGED? ha ha...wow....isnt that something. Sad is what it is. My family keeps telling me to take him to court...but i'm saying forget. I'm gonna look every day for a job...pay this bill myself and move on with life.

I don't want a relationship with him anymore...he is and will be referred to for now on as my mothers son. If I wasn't such a polite person I would have told him what he could kiss and where he can go (if you know what i'm saying)

He doesnt have to worry about AMINAH N. HULL anymore...He can stay exactly where i left him this past thursday "IN THE DARK"!!!!!!!!!

ON my Mind 3-25-09

Today is an okay day. Just a lot on my mind that i am trying not to stress out about. School is okay, but it's pretty tough when you have to leave at 7:40a.m just to be sure you make it to a 10am class. Going all the way out to Dearborn from highland park WITHOUT proper transportation to go to school was one of the decisions i didn't think through i must admit. I'm not really said, I've actually been in a pretty good mood these past few weeks. I'm just stressing out a little because it's so difficult for me to find work. Times are getting tough, and i need the money to provide for my own self. I never ask anyone for anything, even if i know i really need it. I just have to much pride to ask sometimes and its not always a good thing. I've always been the type of person who wants to give and not wait for others to give to me. To help others, and be able to help myself. But even with the little cash i have and the many efforts i put forward to better myself and try to help others along the way, at the end of the day i feel like I'm stuck in neutral when it comes to life. I'm not really going backwards, but i'm also not moving forward wither. I just pray every single moment of the day that things will get better. That's why i'm not sad and I haven't given up on faith because i know that God has something in store for me. I know that's how a lot of people lose in life because they give up early on in the struggle, but not me. I'm not gonna stop working for a better future until God calls me home. Well i'm about to finish filling out this application that i started for "the mexican grill". {lol} i told you i DON'T STOP! {LOL}

Pulse

I sit at the window Ceil and watch the rain drizzle calmly and slowly, but inside my heart begins to pour.

It's not broken, but there where the rhythm sheltered an spontaneous beat it's no longer heard of anymore.

It's merely a thump, a silent sensation with a lack of passion that once set it free

Could it be that the hopes that I once yearned for are no longer in me

What happened to the thrill that made the blood rush threw my veins and the joy cling to my body's every movement

Maybe because it's seeking a way to re invent its self for improvement

The heart has to become sad to understand the meaning of joy, and confused to at some point obtain wisdom to share.

Just because the beat is an unclear one doesn't mean it is no longer there

It is buried only for the moment until you find the satisfying things that uplift you most

That's the moment your spirit is declared alive again, you'll here the pattern of your pulse

My introduction

Hello. My name is Aminah. I'm not new to writing but new blogging. Writing is my outlet. I often write my feelings and many thoughts down in a journal that I keep. I mainly write poetry which stays under my radar and i don't often share with other individuals. I've just always been a very private person. I'm reaching a point in life where i have become a little more open about expressing myself and my feelings to others out loud instead of always jotting them down quietly on paper. I would like to share more of my life and the experiences that i go through with other people and also learn a few things from others. SO if you are a blogger or just a person who enjoys reading feel free to read my blogs.